| Wednesday, February 28th, 2007 |
| 3:10 pm |
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| Saturday, February 10th, 2007 |
| 1:41 am |
wow.,.. fuck life.. its really not that great.. i duno wuts goin on with me and liz..??.. shes SO confusing . would it be wrong if i liked someone else.. well i guess il see.. acacia strain tomorow.. hopefully i get wut i want ;] <3 |
| Sunday, January 28th, 2007 |
| 1:14 am |
fucked
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh this shit is fuckeddddddddddd .......i hate this............ fuck love it hurts to much |
| Monday, January 22nd, 2007 |
| 10:42 pm |
wow so i feel like i dont want to talk to liz ever again and it feels good.. thank god this is over with.. i cant take her anymore .. im finding my self a girl who will respect me .. it might take a little bit but i dont want no stupid little girl whos gunna break my heart |
| 6:28 pm |
yea so me and liz are done.. im sad about it but im starting to get use to it... i guess im over her,, she likes mad guys and she lies to me still.. i just cant do it anymore,, today i called her nextel and her mom picked up.. she said she misses me and tells liz that she likes me and she said i should give it timebut its been so long,, i cant wait anymore.. she aint getting back with me , im just fooling my self and i cant do it anymore.. well i guess im not gunna use this tihng anymore so peace out.. |
| Wednesday, January 17th, 2007 |
| 10:39 pm |
Pretend it's not forever, I'll pull myself together I'll say that I'll forget her, I'll breathe. And I'll say she never hurt me, And look at it as learning, And laugh about the good and the bad. Because I won't live forever We don't belong together, I know I'll feel better, One day when I can make it through. ahhhhhhhhh it happened.. i knew it would.. now i just hurt more.. my heart is broken more..ahh i hate this.. im crying .. its because of her again.. this was it.. the last time i let this happen to me.. im a new dan now.. i hope.... |
| 10:48 am |
ok so this is the first day...i dun think liz even wants to see me,,, so i guess im doin my own thing.. probly gunna chill wit jessie cause he messaged me last night about some things we were discussing lol anywayzzz..im so confused..im gunna try this but i dont like it..ughhh this is wack .. i kinda wish liz never sent me that myspace message because it got my hopes up and now thiers room for failure and a chance my heart is gunna get crushed even more.. i just dont wanna be hurt.. i think im gunna get hurt.. im not ready for this again.. it was hard enough the first time.. im just gunna have to wait and see well im goin to eat breakfast il probly be depressed and right in here tonight so yea...I HOPE I DONT GET HURT AGAIN...I HAVE A FEELING THAT ITS GUNNA HAPPEN =/=/=/=/ |
| 1:32 am |
ok so shit is really wierd...i dont think i can handle it... it feels so wrong.. im gunna give it a week....if it doesnt feel right in a week i have to let this go.. as much as i dont want to ..... i try so hard.. only god knows wut ive gone thru for this to work...everything i do.. it will never change..and i have to accept it..... ahh it really sucks.. i hate this feeling, its just that i love her and i dont want this... but wut can i do ! i feel hopless..... my heart is broken .. my spirit is crushed... my eyes are filled with tears... this is not where i want to be...... |
| Monday, January 15th, 2007 |
| 10:41 am |
ahhhhhhhhhh. im goin nuts. i was lookin foward to seein liz.. but she let me down again.. i knew i shouldnt have gotten so excited.. oh well now il just sit here and cry...ok well im an idiot according to her...w.e it dont matter.. i just feel like shit |
| 1:20 am |
ughghh madddd confused... not sure if liz is just playing games with me or really wants to be with me... its really confusing.. some times i feel like im her secret,, it feels like shit! i wish she would just be with me... i love her so much and im just worried that shes trying to find someone else... if she was i wish she would just say so,, even if she wanted me back after that i probly would take her.. i know shes confused to and i can understand that,.. i really just wish i knew the truth about it all...w.e i guess i just gotta deal with it.. i hate it but i duno liz just means so much to me.. she acts like she tryin to get other guys.. she adds guys on myspace and shit like that.. it dont really bother me but like does she want me or someone else ya know...i duno mad confused ... i just want her back.. i know i can be wut she wants.. she knows it to.. she knows i love her and i know she loves me.. well i hope it all works out... she brang me back into her life like last week so i gues its goin better than it was .. but now if i get hurt again its gnna suck cause i gotta go through it again.. i hope she doesnt hurt me.. i hope shes not playing wtih my heart.. i know she wouldnt do that.. i know she loves me |
| Sunday, January 14th, 2007 |
| 12:20 am |
soo the last few days have been amazing ... me and liz have chilled and it has been mad fun im am so so so happy .. i love liz ! <3 |
| Tuesday, January 9th, 2007 |
| 11:32 am |
ahh so i guess im over liz...i still really want her back but i know i can live with out her.. she was perfect and ive never cheated on her or still havent hooked up with anyone to this day..she hasnt eaither i just know it...i want her back but if she doesnt want me wut can i do..the best is to learn from my mistakes and move on.. maybe one day we wil be back together.. i would love that.. i hope to see her soon.. |
| Sunday, January 7th, 2007 |
| 2:59 am |
ahh im so out one... no even knowss.. im histerical right now.. all i wanted was a half hour the most.. its so bad.. omg i really feel so pathetic.. thank god i have britnay and joe and shit to keep me up.. when im with them i feel ok at least. i just wish i could turn back time.. to a year ago.. when it was perfect |
| 2:50 am |
i wish iwas dead
today was me and lizs 1 year and a half anaversary...i didnt even see her for more than 3 minutes .. that is so wack.. im happy nikki and eva are getting back.. she was talking to me today and she sounds sencire ... i hope she means it...she told me she realized that joe cared a lot and thats all that maters.. its so true .. i hope one day liz will want me back... im crying like crazy.. all i think about is her.. its so fucked .. im dying so bad.. even when i have fun all i can think about is puting my arm around her,, its so fucked man ,, no even knows.. maybe joe knows but thats it.. i cry all the time.. i cry right now,,, even though i went to a party tonight.. i stil miss her,, no one can ever replace her and this is just pathetic... i really give up/// out one as much as i hate it.. i wish so hard.. i pray so much.. it doesnt work,, i just have to stop before i wanna kill myself |
| Thursday, January 4th, 2007 |
| 11:24 pm |
ahh im a lil confused i still love the girl but gotta let her go .. i know i can ..im just gunna do things that are positive to help take her off my mind.. im bout to work out till 3 in da mornin after this ..then sleep..cause if i work out i think about workin out nothing else so thats good .. i stil feel like waiting for liz. i just feel so right with her . but i guess its just not meant to be.. wow, didnt see that comin =/ ahh gotta go startin to get sad |
| 11:13 pm |
ahhh she says its deaded... ya know im kinda ok with that.. its just been so stressing and overwhelming. i know i love her but if she doesnt want to be with me wut can i do.. i will still love her and want to be with her but its all up to her, she just has to talk to me. i really want to remain friends no matter wut. but it all depends on wut she wants because i guess im cool with wutever. i guess i just kinda want her to be happy. its all good ya know becuase she treated me good and she was a great girl so she deserves the best and i will always look out for her. all i really want is to spend some time with her on saturday which would have been exactly a year and half..thats along time..it was great all of it the ups and the downs it was a great part of my life the best so far, but you never know wut the future has in store for us =] |
| 12:45 pm |
i was looking foward to seeing liz so badly all morning,,, i set my alarm to 7 in the morning because i didnt wanna sleep late and miss her.. but instead she changed her plans.. =/ i was so happy that she was finally gunna hang out with me at my house or sumtihng ..i duno now im just crying,, all i ever want is to just see her ....she doesnt even want to see me ....she just curses at me when we talk.. i try to be nice.. i try to be a good guy.. all she does is throw it away like its nothing ahhh now im just gunna sit here alone for a while cause i really wanted to see her and thiers really nothing that can make me happy right now... |
| Thursday, December 28th, 2006 |
| 2:35 am |
the end
omg im so sad i cant help myself.. everytime i feel like im over her i get reminded about how much i miss her..for the last week i have been hanging out with justinand joe.. thank god for them..thier the best friends i have right now.. they help me out when i need it...even though we dont do much while we chill it gets my mind off liz and gets me out of my house.. breaking up with liz HAS CHANGED MY LIFE .. its made me realize who my real friends are.. its made me realize that you have to hold on to the things you love and cherish them for as long as they last because it cuold be over at any second... i know that it took me a while to find liz and i know she is so special,, i dont know if she could ever be replaced but i guess its worth a try.. she was for me =/ she was my girl =/ my true love =/ i have no one to really talk to .. i wish i did ,, sometimes at night i feel so lonley i find myself sitting up till 5 in the mornin hopin that liz will sign on..some times i feel like she dont wanna talk so i hesitate to talk to her..sometimes i dont even talk to her.. that kills me the worst.. i just dont want to upset her. i dont wanna be like drew or jared. i wanna be able to move on..but its so HARD. i feel so bad for anyone who has lost a person they love truely..you work so hard.. put in so much effort but its just forgoten or thrown away like it meant nothing,, i tried so hard to make her happy....people told me i was crazy but all i would say is crazy in love and it is still so true..even her parents use to wonder why i gave her so many chances..... i see liz for wut she truely is .. for wut she is when were alone..when shes smileing.. shes the cutest girl ever =] when were cuddling.. no one really knows how amazing liz is.. her friends love her but not like i do..they love her because they have fun burning and stuff.. i love liz because her smile makes my heart beat.. i love liz for wut she truely is.. she has the qualitys of the best gf in the world..but shes worried about her friends to much..maybe in time she wil realize wut truly matters....looking good or cool dont matter...wut matters is that you have people who truely love you for who you are and not wut you do..liz loved me for me and thats why she was so special....she loved my smile,, my voice,, my massages, my arms,, my hands,, my head,, lol,, my everything from inside out..thats why i miss her so much..its gunna be so hard to find another girl who can be as good as liz.. but i have to move on she doesnt even like to talk on the phone...=/ ahh it makes me sick to my stomach ..jingle ball was so fun.. one of the best nights i can remember..but the night i remeber the most was a long time a go when i just met this girl and i heard she liked me..we raced up the block..she fell and scraped her knee..i felt so bad lol.. later that night she called me to talk.. she told me she liked me =] i thought it was a joke how could a girl so pretty be in love with me...in a couple of days we were sitting in my house and i asked her to be my girlfriend <3 o7-06-05 <3 still the best day in my life =] the only way im gunna keep writing in here if some one aknowledges me .. liz is like the only one who can..so i doubt it.. goodbye livejournal <3 |
| 2:15 am |
its over... i cant do anything anymore.. i tried my best... =/ i feel so empty inside.. im missing the biggest part of my heart.. and i kinda know im never gonna get it back .. makes me cry to even think about it.. she doesnt care shes happier with out me.. i guess its better that way... well it was the best part of my life,, memories i wil never forget =] i will still always love my first true love my soulmate i love you elizabeth so much... i worry about you always.. im stil here for you |
| Saturday, December 23rd, 2006 |
| 10:40 am |
SHE LOVED ME SHE CARE ABOUT ME SHE USE TO HAVE FUN WITH ME.. WHY DID IT HAVE TO CHANGE... FUCK LIFE FUCK THE WORLD FUCK THE PEOPLE IN IT FUCK GOD FUCK IT..ALL I EVER WANTED WAS HER..LIFE FEELS SO MEANINGLESS.. I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO GO BACK TO THE WAY IT WAS../WHEN SHE STILL LOVED ME =[ I FUCKING HATE THIS ALL I WANT IS TO TALK TO HER AND STOP CRYING |
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